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Deep Cleansing Breath

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I managed to hurt my finger again.  More gravy!  I was testing the gravy at home to see if it was warm enough, and without thinking I dipped my not-completely-healed finger into a small amount on a spoon.  It was so hot it burned my fingertip.  It’s feeling much better today but is still red.

None of my clothes fit me anymore.  Well, they do, but they are uncomfortable and my choices are limited.  I got on the scale today and it read 242.4, so that explains it.

I’m a mere .6 away from my heaviest weight of this year, which is where I was when I started SparkPeople in January.  All that work down the drain.

I know why I gained.  I’ve been depressed and not really caring about my weight.  I’d been lazy, and eating everything in sight.  Being healthy is hard work and I am LAZY.

I realize that I need to treat myself better.  I started working out with a friend in the evening (we’re doing various DVDs in her humongous living room after work).  I’m not crazy about it, but it’s not the company, it’s just my natural inclination to want to go home and lounge around eating peanut butter.

I signed back in to SparkPeople today, and I’ve been logging my food.  Mostly fruits and veggies, but then again it’s only 10:30 in the morning.

I can do this, because I’ve done it before.  It doesn’t matter if it’s the holidays, because they are each only one day per month.  I need to take better care of myself.  I want to fit back into my clothes!

  1. Logging every bite.
  2. No candy.  Who needs it?
  3. Exercising at least 10 minutes per day.
  4. Speak kindly to myself.

I’m Back

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So where do I even begin?  The last several weeks I’ve had a lot going on, and I wish I could say “ta-da, look at what I got accomplished!” but the truth is, the last few weeks have been about struggle, struggle, struggle, and have not been a lot about results.

In the health arena, I fell off the wagon with a big thud.  I made an attempt at a restart last week but it didn’t go very well.  I decided to give myself the rest of the month off.  So tomorrow being July 1, I get started all over again.  I realize there is a holiday this weekend but my plan is to spend most of it in the swimming pool.  Swimming = exercise.

Work.  Work sucks.  Work sucks, big time.

Personal life.  This area of my world is amazing and frustrating at the same time.  A lot of what’s going on here is affected by the sucky work situation, and also my fall from the weight loss wagon.

Basically, I need to make time to write more, because writing is how this frustration is released, and thus keeps me from eating myself alive.  Writing is my salvation.

This post is my introductory post, my way of saying “more to come”.  Today is Wednesday and I took the day off from work (no way was I showing up early for work after the midnight showing of Eclipse last night/this morning) and I’ll be preparing more introspective posts for the future.

If you’re still around, thanks for sticking with me.

It’s All About the Numbers

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My most important piece of advice to anyone trying to lose weight is: LOOK AT ALL OF THE NUMBERS.

The scale lies.  I weigh daily and find I’m up one day and down the next, then down really low for two days, and back up again.  That will mess with your head if you’re not prepared for it.

In 2001, I did Weight Watchers.  I was living in New York City and doing the program with some work friends who lived in my neighborhood (Middle Village, Queens, in case you are interested – meetings were at Metro Mall on Saturday mornings).  Over the course of about 8 months I lost 40 lbs.

I was religious about the program and completely focused on the scale.  If it went down, I was happy.  If it went up, I was sad.  Luckily, it didn’t go up too often.

I didn’t think about anything else but those weekly weigh ins and the number they wrote on my little card (and the stickers my leader would put next to it “Great Job!” “Superstar!”).  I didn’t have a scale at home, and all I knew was I wanted that number on the scale to go down.

One day in late summer I was putting off doing laundry so I dug in the bottom of the dresser and pulled out a pair of short and put them on.  They fit fine, and it wasn’t until I took them off later that I realized they were a pair of shorts I hadn’t fit into in years.  I had forgotten I even owned them!

Suddenly I realized all of my clothes were bagging off me and making me look like a hobo.  I went shopping, stat!

Somehow I was losing weight and not seeing the changes.  It never occurred to me I was getting smaller, just that the number on the scale was going down.

Talk about a disconnect!

This time feels much more natural.  I can tell my body is changing, and as of last month I started taking measurements.  Even though I had a very small weight loss amount in 3 weeks, I was thrilled to know that my waist was half an inch smaller, and my hips were an inch smaller!

I’ve added some  more measurements to take next month.  I can’t wait to find out how much of me is gone!


These days my weight loss program is SparkPeople.  If you’re looking for an alternative to pricey weight loss websites, this FREE site might just be for you.  I love the tools and the support.

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Goal Reset

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When I met my February goal I also set a goal to lose 4 lbs by the end of March.  I somehow (ok, hard work and lots of fruits and veggies) managed to lose 4 lbs THIS WEEK.

There are still two weigh-in weeks left in the month, so I’ve reset my goal for 2 lbs lower just to make it achievable.

Want to know how I’m doing it?  Sparkpeople.  This WORKS.

I’ve lost 16.6 lbs since January 25th!

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The Little Things

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I cannot tell you how many times I have read in a magazine that to lose weight you should try a few little simple tricks to drop the pounds. Those articles always say things like:

  • Park farther away in the parking lot from your destination.
  • Take the stairs instead of the elevator.
  • Stop drinking sodas.

These are all really good pieces of advice, but I always figured they were focused on those people who only had 5-10 lbs to lose.  They didn’t really work for people like me, did they?

I thought I would find out.  The first day I started on this lifestyle change I took the stairs instead of the elevator when I got to work.  I’ve taken the stairs every day since.  Even when I don’t feel good.  Even when I am carrying a bunch of crap with me.  Even when the last thing on earth I want to do is take the stairs.  I take them anyway.   I take them up.  I take them back down again.

How about that parking lot thing?  With the occasional excuse of “raining” I park as far away from the front door in any parking lot as I can get.  I haven’t had to fight for a parking spot since January!  I don’t even notice the extra steps.

Soda.  Giving up sugary soda wasn’t all that difficult.  I switched to diet first, and then I went a few days without diet, and now I have one every few days and I almost never finish it.

Those small steps, combined with trying to eat healthier and working in the occasional 30 minutes here and there at the gym has results in a weight loss in excess of 12 pounds in just about 6 weeks now.

I’d say those little things add up to big things.  You just have to keep doing them long enough for them to add up.

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What I’m Doing

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Thanksgiving 2008 I tipped the scales at 278 lbs, at a generous 5’3 tall.  I decided that I couldn’t let things get any more out of control, so I started adding a teensy bit of activity here and there, and watching what I ate a little bit.  Nothing major, but enough to lose 40 lbs over the course of a year. 

In January 2009 I was down almost 10 lbs but when I went in to the ob-gyn for my annual checkup they noted there was sugar in my urine, and then we had “the talk” about my weight.  The doctor wanted me to come in for blood tests to determine if I was diabetic, and also wanted me to lose some weight.

I didn’t go back for additional tests, because I didn’t want to know the results (don’t try this at home, folks).

By August 2009 I was 238 lbs and out of motivation.  Actually, I had motivation to get healthier, just no drive or determination.  I thought about getting diet pills from the doctor, but I really didn’t want to go back just yet.  I also didn’t want to do Weight Watchers because my previous attempts at it had led to an unhealthy food obsession.

I had heard of this site, SparkPeople.com, and had even signed up for it before, but I didn’t understand how it worked.  I decided I would try it again in January 2010.

Over the holidays I gained (only!) 4 lbs, and while I signed up for SparkPeople (SP) that first week, I didn’t actually do anything until I got good an disgusted with myself on Sunday, January 24.  I decided I would try SP for a week or two and see what it was really about.

I also decided I was going to treat myself better.  People love me, I could love myself.  I would also face my dreaded enemy: the stairs. 

Monday, January 25th I was 242 lbs and it was my first work day taking the stairs.  I hated it, but I was so proud of myself for doing it.  I also tracked all my food and did some reading on the site.  Over the next several days I created a SparkPage and started blogging.

Pretty soon, people were coming to my page and commenting on my blog there, even friending me!  The support was so amazing.  I was hooked!

I’m midway through week 5 of the program, and my official total so far is -12.2 lbs.  It looks like I am on track to lose at least one lb this week, if not two.  I also take those stupid stairs Every.Single.Day.

I’ll be a bit more specific about myself and post some pictures soon.  The writing will get better, too, I promise.  I just need to get this preliminary stuff out of my head first. 

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