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I was cleaning up my desk yesterday and found this quote again. It’s actually taped above my monitor on a shelf, but I don’t always notice it. This is the entire quote. The bold portion is what I have above my desk.
“In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are its worst. In the name of the values that keep you alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title. Do not lose your knowledge that man’s proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads.
Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it’s yours.”
~ Ayn Rand
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An amazing thing happened yesterday: my boss, the hateful snake, got canned. The official story is that he is moving on to other opportunities within the corporation, but I tell you, there was quite a bit of drama yesterday. There were tears.
I didn’t shed a single one.
The new boss has been introduced and takes control tomorrow, and who knows where that will go. For now, I’m just glad to be rid of the other guy. A lot of us are.
I have been so miserable the past 18 months and didn’t even realize how much. My husband told me that last night was the first time in 18 months I had come home smiling. I didn’t dread coming in to work this morning.
In fact, it still hasn’t completely sunk in that he’s gone.
My focus for so long has been to survive this place long enough to get out, and now I get to enjoy my job again? I don’t even know how to do that! I’m going to try.
In the meantime, I need to continue to focus on getting my own business off the ground.
The weather in my area has been delicious the past several days. It’s like summer just stole away in the middle of the night. I love the fall, and it takes forever for it to get here.
A very dear friend sent this to my cell phone:
This is my favorite restaurant in my home town. I used to always want to go there for special occasions. I really miss it. I miss home.
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I had a horrible weekend as far as my eating was concerned. I didn’t do major diet damage, but I was definitely not the perfect OA member. Not even close.
I went searching for a sponsor last week and found one, though it seemed a bit tentative. She wanted to monitor my progress through an orientation loop, so I started cc’ing her on my responses. She has been really sweet and responsive.
Sunday afternoon I tried to nap to stop myself from eating, but all I did was cry. I finally sent her an email and she responded with some very insightful thoughts and helpful words of encouragement. I am so grateful for her part in my attempts at recovery.
When I stop focusing on food I am able to focus on other things, which is pretty amazing. I am trying to be more creative, and to honor my creative process.
I’m trying to stop and enjoy life – smell the roses, take time to talk with friends, really listen to my body and my heart and my mind. This week has been much better already – I am a creative powerhouse!